The Big Day!...... or is it?

Lately my facebook home page is being assaulted with a lot of wedding albums shared by proud brides, grooms, brides mades and photographers who unfortunately discovered their talent on this kind of events due to the so cultural Romanian life.

I realized how time is giving its print to this events how the pictures changed, the brides dresses are much more styled from the times when i was a bride how the main actors faces are younger and younger but their hopeful smiles are the same. Eyes full of joy and trust in the future to come and in the love they bare for one another.

And then I wonder...... how long is going to take for them to realize that the fairytale is not a fairytale after all. I am sure some of them will see at one point that it is more than that and for some it will be better. They will grow to appreciate the mutual respect and the friendship that this kind of contract needs in order for it to work. Or they will just crunch their teeth and realize there is no other way now since the baby was already produced in that first year when the love was still there.

And slowly the will lo live this life at it’s full potential will vanish and some other hobbies will come in their life, anything just to make the time pass and make the pain easier.

Maybe I say this because of my failed marriage, because I finally realized that no new hobby will make the pain easier. ( And trust me I tried many) . Or maybe I say this because every time I see a new wedding album on my facebook home page I want to scream and tell them stop making a joke out of Love. Feel first and think after cos later when you will be tired of thinking the feeling you will have will kill you. Realize that Love is not this needy feeling that you have every time you look at the “loved” one. It is not the control or the changes you try to pressure on him/her. It is not the addiction you feel for that person and it is not the safe feeling you get from being a couple.

Love is so much more that many of us never get to understand it and feel it at it’s right. It is the most selfless act, it is the most surrendering and it is full commitment, something that it has to come from your soul and not from some society or religious rules.

Congratulations on The Big Day:)

Humana

Life at DRH :)

26.07.2010 Norway

So here I am ..... Norway, the beginning of the dream as i like to call it. It is the end of my second day here and i am starting to believe the saying “ The man makes the place”.
Indeed we make the places we walk on.
Here i am in the middle of no were , surrounded by so many strangers, nice strangers, some even cute strangers, and i love it. For the first time in a very long time i feel myself. I feel free and ready to explore new possibilities. A lot of the people here share my beliefs, my dreams, have the same goals and even if many of them don’t know this yet they are all searching for themselves. They like to call it being bored with what they had back home, but is the same.
So the trip day was like a breaking point for me, i thought about all the ones i left at home and maybe, just maybe i lived one of those movie moments ..... i called him to say goodbye and he wanted me back.... my heart is still with him most of the time but all i want to do now is thank him for the movie moment. I really needed it.
Most of the people here are complaining, about the food, the weather the boring moments of the day..... the humanly complaining subjects. Somehow it makes me wonder what do we want in the end. Maybe is Love, love for life , love for and from others, love for our work, our children...... why we always search and in the complain?
I hope by the end of this program to find the answer to this question.

Peace Corps

Heroes 1

Where does it come from? This quest... This need to solve life’s mysteries.... for the simplest of questions can never be answered. Why are we here? What is the soul? Why do we dream? Perhaps it would be better off not looking at all..... Not doubting, not desiring. But that’s not human nature, not the human heart. That is not why we are here......

Yet still we struggle to make a difference, to change the world, to dream of hope, never knowing for certain who we will meet along the way. Who among the world of strangers will hold our hand, touch our hearts and share the pain of trying.

A child is born to innocence, a child is drawn towards good. Why then so many among us go so horribly wrong. What makes some walk the path of darkness, while others choose the light. Is it will? Is it destiny? Can we ever hope to understand the force that shapes the soul?

It starts with light and ends with light and in between there is darkness. Nothing there is beyond hope, nothing that could be sworn impossible. Nothing left unimagined since Zeus, father of the Olympians made night from midday, hiding the light of the shining sun and raining dark fear dawn upon men.

There is a moment in every war when everything changes. A moment when the road bends, alliances and battle lines shift and the rules of engagement are rewritten. Moments like these can change the nature of the battle and turn the tide for either side. So we do what we can to understand them. To be ready for change we steady our hearts, cover our fears, master our forces and look for signs in the stars. But these moments, these game changes remain a mystery. Destiny is the invisible hand moving the pieces from the chessboard. No matter how much we prepare for them, how much we resist the change, anticipate the moment, fight the inevitable outcome, in the end, we are never truly ready when it strikes.

Carpe Diem

"Seize the Day"

Carpe diem is a phrase from a Latin poem by Horace. It is popularly translated as "seize the day". Carpe means "pick, pluck, pluck off, gather", but Horace uses the word to mean "enjoy, make use of."

In Horace, the phrase is part of the longer Carpe diem quam minime credula postero – "Seize the day, trusting as little as possible in the future", and the ode says that the future is unknowable, and that instead one should scale back one's hopes to a brief future, and drink one's wine.

" And if not now, when? "